I have faith…

I have faith to believe that when all around me seems to disintegrate into nothingness, God is preparing us for great things.

I have faith to believe that when I feel like I am losing control of everything, God is taking things into His Hands.

I have faith to believe that He who began work in me will bring it to completion.

I have faith to believe that even though darkness surrounds me, there is light living in me that will shine.

I have faith to believe that even though I lack the understanding of Your great love for me, that love does not lose its depth.

After all that is said and done, I have faith.

I have faith…


Good Morning?

Today, I woke on time but ended up leaving late from home because of some work that I had to do which could have been told to me to get it done the previous day. I run to get ready for work only to find that all my trousers are in the wash. End up wearing jeans to work even though there is a no-casuals HR policy. Rush to the main road, only to find no rickshaw willing to go to the station. Finally, one agreed reluctantly and I run to catch my train. But if you would notice the pattern, nothing seemed to be working right so I ran to the wrong platform and missed my train and a step. Bam! I fall almost on my face on an almost empty platform which meant that the spectacle that I was early in the morning was not hidden by a crowd and ended up entertaining people on the other platform. Run up the bridge and still miss the train (surprise surprise). Enter the train and I am at the door thinking that it couldn’t possibly get any worse now. I had to be proved wrong. It rains and along with the rain, tears. And in my heart, I asked God, ‘Why did it seem like I couldn’t catch a break?’. The only thing that seemed to be giving me any kind of respite from the many questions, confusion and silent wondering was the fact the I had God and today it felt like He too did not think it too important to make me feel taken care of, protected, loved. My heart felt sad. Like I had no hope. Continue reading

Romans 1:16

16I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile.

I have decided to give this whole blogging thing another go. Only this time, I would decrease and Jesus would increase. I could rant all day and not a thing would change but if I talk to God about it, I know He makes the impossible, possible. I haven’t lost my sense of humour; it’s just that I have found my life’s purpose and that is to live for His Kingdom’s cause. I realise that if I am just satisfied with just myself being right with God, I have lost perspective of what I am here for.

So, I am picking up from where I left the last time. Only this time, I am nothing if it means that God becomes my everything.

Note: I still am a magikler!

I want…

I want a rule book.

A book about what I need to do next.

I don’t want to think about what I have to/ want to do.

I don’t want to make decisions.

I want an instruction manual.

I want everything spelled out.

No surprises. No discoveries.

No fine print. No hidden clauses

I want a route map.

A map with well defined roads to where I have to be.

I don’t want to get lost.

I don’t want to wait anymore.

I want…

Day 1- An Introduction

I, finally, decided to blog!!

After all these years of contemplating, I finally have a blog. Yay!!

When I say years, I mean, YEARS. I used to write a diary but that was ruined for me when a certain ‘someone’ at home decided to let my mom know that I had a diary where I wrote my thoughts (mainly gibber(rubb)ish). And then what followed can only be defined as third degree torture. Not like anything there was a big secret, it was just my view on many things of which a few were a little controversial.

Anyway. let bygones be bygones.

Everyday is a new day.

It’s like water under the bridge.

Let sleeping dogs lie.

Forgive and forget.

Preaching to the choir (I know, I know. it doesn’t make sense. I just like this one!).

Enough for now, I guess.